Broken thoughts…

I am currently watching “My So Called Life” on hulu. I LOVED THIS SHOW. Sayang only one season…I actually already have the whole DVD set…but…I thought it was cool that its online…this show was great. Totally brings me back to high school, even tho I was in jr. high when it was on…but it totally captures high school moments. Speaking of high school…my 10 year reunion is next month. Yikes! Fortunately I won’t be able to go…even though I thought whenever this day came I’d want to go…I actually liked high school…But I’m actually gonna be a bridesmaid that day for my best friends wedding. And I don’t feel sO bad since me, her, and her other bridesmaid all went to the same high school and we’ll all be missing our reunion together. Crazy. Like really?! Am I this old? Haha sad….but not. I mean I loVed the 90’s and growing up then. so its cool…right? Haha

I love my job. I mean its stressful, there can be difficult patients, difficult doctors, and other difficult co-workers but for the most part I love it. Every time I work I pick out my favorite baby…like whichever’s the cutest. The other night it was Corrina. super cute baby! And she loved to snuggle. Super cry baby whenever she was put down so you were forced to carry her so she’d be quiet. Not bad when its not busy. And like a super wonderful nurse, multitasking comes naturally so a lot of us will be at the nurses station cradling a baby in one arm and doing paper work with the other free hand =). Its easier to do that on night shift because there’s less people around, so we get to hang out with the babies in peace. I love babies. I can totally wait to have my own…but sometimes I just wanna kiss the babies, but they’re not mine so I don’t. Promise I don’t. haha that would be weird. But they’re sO cute you just want to! Trust me.

I love bathing them. We wash them immediately after they’re born, and we wash them at night too…like after they’ve been there for 24 hours…but yeah it’s the funniest thing. They hate baths. They wail like it’s the worst thing eveR. And I guess it is, I mean I just woke them from their slumber all swaddled and comfortable and then without warning the next thing they know their naked and all wet. So I guess that is a little disturbing…haha. Its just funny to me how upset they get…but then its like Hello I’m cleaning you baby calm down, this is for your own good. And it never fails, once they’re all clean, warm, dry, dressed, and swaddled again, there is this priceless peace that comes over them and its like you couldn’t imagine that baby was crying bloody murder a second ago. sO funny.

Its like God, with us. Things may happen to us…trials and suffering…but He knows that its for our own good…and even though we hate it…there’s no way that we’re going through it for nothing…there iS a reason. There iS a purpose. We just don’t know it yet. And He’s loving us through it. There wiLL be peace. We just have to be patient and trust. I think about that analogy each time I bathe them. He doeS have a plan. “I’mma be ok” says Leona Lewis =)

EOM. (End of Mystagogia)

I’m starting to get excited to be a participant at the SFC conference in MD =)

I miss summer 2008. But yes moving forward Lord, cause you want me to.

k bye.

oh "Love and basketball". i've watched this movie a million times and i aLways cry at that part when monica and her mom are arguing in the kitchen, right before i laugh at that line, "oh, no. Are they cursin' their mama's in spain?!" haha

oh. its on right now as i blog.

so if you don't know, i am and have been a Labor and Delivery nurse at st. mary and elizabeth's medical center, since last November 2008. no longer a missionary but forever and always will be a servant of God.  

...so i have the most random stories from work...some good, some bad, some sad, some funny, a lot random. i work with a diverse group of nurses from age to nationality to personality. and those are just co-workers, patients are a whole nother story! every day/night ( i work night shift 7pm-7am) is unpredictable! work can be so slow one minute where we have just one patient laboring (having contractions but still have a lot of time until she has her baby) and the next minute 3 women can walk in at the same time and be ready to pop their babies out. one night there was only 1 doctor on the unit so i had to keep my patient from pushing her baby out til the doctor came in! I remember being really scared i was gonna deliver this patient's baby by myself...i'm all "no pua! respira!" (you like my spanish? haha "don't push! breathe!"...i think. haha) and then yelling out for the doctor to come in. work is pretty fun ! God has really blessed me with a great job, not many people can say they love their job, especially nursing but i do. its not perfect, i have cried frustration tears after a shift or two...but frustration tears come with any job, i know i shed more than a few during fulltime work! ha! best 2 and half years of my life though for sure .

but man i be sore sometimes after work, some moms push for more than 2 hours and, not that i'm doing more work than them, but shoot i have to hold their legs back the whole time and it gets pretty tiring! i just worked 3 nights in a row...i'm mad sore.  in dire need of a massage.

-one night this mom pushed for 2 hours and i remember her being so tired she was all "i'm done. i'm done." i was all " uh your baby's still inside, you are not done." she was all "she's still not out?!" and then she would start speaking spanish "no puedo. no puedo." oh man. you have to be super encouraging throughout the whole thing " mas fuerte! si puede!" oh. we have mad spanish speaking patients. i'm learning haha

-i have to bathe the babies after they're born. which is fun and i have to get their footprints too, yesterday i noticed the chubbiest baby feet i've seen yet. haha cute.

-the other night my patient was watching Nacho Libre in her room, i totally love that movie its hilarious, anyway i was all taking the baby's vital signs and it happened to be the part where nacho takes the nun out and he's wearing those tight white pants and he squeezes his butt cheeks together and then he's all  "...beneath the clothes we find a man, and beneath a man we...find...his...nucleus." i totally had to hold in my laugh...cause i'm this "professional" right? but you know when you're not suppose to laugh so you hold it in, it just makes you wanna laugh even harder? oh man, it was sO hard to keep my composure.

other random things...

...so i'm 27 years old and i guess i don't look it...i struggle to look 21...but anyway...i don't mind not looking 27 i guess its a compliment but i mean i don't wanna look 15 either. you know what i'm saying? so like now that i'm older and especially now at work...i don't know its not cool. its almost embarassing, it iS embarassing..."you're 27?! you look 15!"...right it'd be good like "oh you're 27?! i thought you were 21" that, thats not bad. but 15?! not cool. and i mean outside of work is the worst like...ok ryan navarro messing around and pretending to hit on me - funny. actual random teenage boys trying to get with me for real - not cool. like really? oh.

-facebook. that is just too many worlds coming together. i don't know how i feel about it. its cool i like it, keeping in touch and all. but man this is not just community friends/family. my relatives are there, i found my highschool friends up on there and even my grade school friends, - we're actually meeting up in a few weeks! oh. then my college friends and now i got my co-workers being my friends...i don't know man... and then my first ever boyfriend haha from 6th grade ( i know that doesn't count) but still, totally found me. weird. like is this cool? or too much?...you know?...

-conan o'brien won't be on tv unitl june 1st. i don't know how i'm gonna survive.

-theresa was here and now jules is here again! oh pieces of seattle. can't wait til the summer

holy things...

-yay its Lent!

-st. therese sent me a rose

-st. francis helps my dog poop when he's constipated haha

-did you know there are different kinds of rosaries?! i just got 2 new ones  the Franciscan Crown rosary which you meditate on the 7 joys of mama mary! a 7 decade rosary plus 2 beads in the beginning equaling 72 beads which is supposedly how old mama mary was when she was assumed into heaven! then there's the seven dolor rosary which has instead of 10 beads at a time, there are 7. and then you pray 7 hail mary's 7 times meditating on the 7 sorrows of mama mary. crazy huh? pretty cool. oh.

ok last thought. excited for weddings 2009! in the order that they are happening:

May 2 - renee and raymond's in Vancouver, BC

July 25 - carmela and bryan's in Chicago, IL

August 1 - my sister and errol's in Bolingbrook, IL 

September 26 - audrey and andy's in Alsip, IL

December 12 - cheryl and vince's in Dallas/New jersey, usa

December 19 - mia and erwin's in sydney, Australia

God willing i can make it to the last two!

aright must go take kaboozer to get groomed at pet smart. 

k trying to blog once a month again like i use to. we'll see...

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...so since i left seattle:
week 1
week long road trip with my parents across the country. (mad detour back home) left Washington Sunday, then off to:
Portland - took my parents to the Grotto
San Francisco - my dad's never been and totally just wanted to see and cross the Golden Gate bridge it was and adventure trying to get to it
Las Vegas - Marvin hooked it up with an awesome hotel room on the strip!
Nevada to Arizona - saw the Hoover dam pretty cool
Grand Canyon - Highlight of the trip! it was my first time and it was even more than i expected. to some it might be boring but stuff like that just leaves me in awe of how great God is and how much bigger He is than me and my life. i don't know how anyone can go to the Grand Canyon and not have like a spiritual God moment. I felt like i could touch God there or something and I just didn't wanna leave. yeah...man it was literally awesome. But at one point i felt like i was 5 years old again because my parents were telling me not to get too close to the edge cause they were afraid i might fall or something
the rest of Arizona to Utah - a whole lot of desert, cool colored sand, and amazing huge rocks...
Colorado - kinda sucked. haha...it was super rainy driving through it and it was at night so it was kinda scary and then it was snowing so much that they closed the highway - booooo mountain passes! so we ended up staying overnight
Nebraska- hello midwest. all flat land. visited my dad's cousin. we stayed a few hours there, ate dinner then drove right past Iowa and made it home sweet home to Chicago at 5am Friday morning
Week 2:
Sy - Gabagat Wedding festivities/hanging out with friends from across the country
realizations that week:
Jhoanne's married!i'm home! Yay more seattle friends met my family. booo i can be a really bad friend. maricris is not here  i really should rest. dang Candy can eat!
Week 3:
first normal week of being home. no more out of towners to entertain. Realized that..
I really love my city. the diversity, the food, our public public transportation (despite the occasional urine stench to go up to the L at the Howard and other stations) it’s still the best. catching up with my best friends is priceless. highlight meal, besides Gino's East pizza and Portillo's Italian beef sandwich this week, was bacon and rice downtown

now on to week 4 i guess huh?...geez

North West i miss you more than you know. praying for you all even more now.  

on a SUPER HAPPY NOTE...the NKOTB Concert here is on OCTOBER 4th!!!! i have yet to get tickets but i swear New Kids back together has got to be the biggest news since...like...um...gee i honestly don't know. I've never been this excited about seeing someone in concert. seriously tops Janet and Green Day excitement and that's serious cause i'm obsessed with Janet and Green Day but NKOTB was my first love so yeah, i think going to this concert will top all the other concerts i've ever been to, and i've seen amazing people live in the past...like 10 years since i started going to concerts...yeah i'm thinking aside from probably crying with tears of joy I think i just might pass out there. haha yeah seriously, that would suck but i wouldn't be surprised. I got pretty emotional at my first Janet and my first Green Day concerts…so I can only imagine how I will be at the New Kids one. Ok now i'm done.

I love God